Updated: Jun 14, 2019
It would be a lie if I were to say that writing this entry doesn't feel a little bit differently. Someone is actually going to maybe read this. Cool. Welcome back. Thanks for coming.
My mind wanders throughout the day
Thoughts come and go as they please
Some are fleeting
Some will stay
And I will put them away in a place that's safe.
A place to keep my thoughts safe. They don't feel nearly as safe. I feel metaphorically naked. With a little bit of the shame and embar(r)assment that might come from being naked in public. (Sentence structure, I know, and I don't care, and I'll do what I want) However, there is a louder deeper voice hollering "Hey everybody! Look at me." I like it. You should try it sometime. While my thoughts might not be safe from judgement (because I care so much about what everyone thinks), at least some of them will be safe from fleeting.
*the names have been changed to protect the innocent (except for Ace, he's mine)
I try everyday to pry something out of Ace that is witty or insightful, and I will succeed soon enough. The mind of a three year old is packed with useful, priceless, hilarious nuggets. This conversation was not with Ace. I had a baseball lesson with two 9 year olds, Beavis and...just kidding. Let's call them Mark and Sammy. Mark and Sammy crack me up. Mark is big and strong, Sammy is a little guy, rather, Sammy is the size of your average 9 year old. Sammy is a goofball; Mark means business. I asked the two of them, while we were picking up balls in the cage, for some words of wisdom. Sammy, who was staring off in some distant corner snaps his head around and said, "Always pay attention!" With some serious conviction in his voice. Of course he would say that. Mark looked up and said, "Always do your best." Funny, I thought. When I work with Sammy individually, you'd better believe I spend a lot of time kindly reminding him to pay attention. Mark, on the other hand, has that part down. Most of what I tell him is to keep doing his best. Always pay attention. Always do your best. I have a sneaking suspiscion (I saw it right away. Interrupted my flow - suspicion) that the person always doing their best isn't often reminded to pay attention. It seems to me that if you want to have a chance to be your best, a lot of attention has to be paid. Attention to how you manage your time, how you align and prioritize your work and your life, attention to how you will leave this place just a little bit better than you found it.